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My greatest drawback is lack of self-confidence. Certain lack of self confidence leads me avoiding people because I don't want to deal with it. Sometimes, I feel uneasy and embarrassed with people I don't really know or those who are older than me. I just do not know start what topic with them.

Most of the people think I am a quiet girl. They do not know my genuine and inner personality. Actually I am very talkative, but it is always hidden. Once I meet any unfamiliar people, my brain will straight away blank,and I will don't know what to say. Sometimes, even I have thing to say,the words cannot be say out, like the voice being trapped inside the throat.

In my opinion, it is very difficult to join Those who have their own gang. Don't know you guys think my opinion right or wrong. I always feel that I am always the outsider, always being left out. Sometimes, I am mad of myself. Why I cannot be more active, social and show the true me? Am I too pessimistic? I should work out the best me, Isn't it?